Love is Not Forbidden

Was being in love with you a bad thing? Some might judge me harshly for it, calling it “inappropriate” or “misplaced” at best and “betrayal” at worst. But there is no question in my mind. Love is not a sin. Love is not a crime. And love is not immoral. Love is divine and all love is a reflection of God’s love. And none of God’s laws forbid love.

But love can be a very powerful affliction. And it changes you. And quite often the affliction drives a person into the dark corners of themselves where the love is laced with fears and addicitions, jealousy and treachery or lust and lechery and eventually drives one toward loneliness and despair. Sometimes the power of love causes people to behave very badly. If I ever behaved badly, then I’m guilty. If I ever behaved lustfully or disrespected you, if I ever betrayed anyone because of my love for you, then I’m guilty. And I beg you to forgive me. If I ever let my love for you drag me down and make me less of a human, then I should be filled with shame.

But love is what lifts you up. It can dissolve the shadows, cut off weaknesses and cauterize the sprouts of evil within the soul. Love is the only thing that will ever give you wings. I fell in love with you and I rose to the occasion. I made that love a part of my soul and I made it healthy and good. I feel no guilt. And not a hint of shame. Joy is what I feel loving you. And what happened to me, as a consequence of that love, was very beautiful. It changed me. But it was more than some simple change: it was a transcendent force in my life. It has been the ultimate longing of my soul. Being in love with you was a divine gift, a bridge to heaven; it put me on a much better path.